Wash my feet LORD

John 13:6-7
Then He came to Simon Peter. And Peter said to Him, "Lord, are You washing my feet?" (7) Jesus answered and said to him, "What I am doing you do not understand now, but you will know after this." (8) Peter said to Him, "You shall never wash my feet!" Jesus answered him, "If I do not wash you, you have no part with Me." (9) Simon Peter said to Him, "Lord, not my feet only, but also my hands and my head!" (10) Jesus said to him, "He who is bathed needs only to wash his feet, but is completely clean; and you are clean, but not all of you."

This came to by surprise, I saw my colleague doing devotion then I ask him to forward it to me, and I read the devotion portion for Berean. This really struck me to the core.
In this verse, Jesus was washing the disciple’s feet, many people would interpret the verse as Christ is trying to put on humility to wash disciple’s feet. But sadly, most people are losing the real affection Jesus had on his disciple.
It is understand that people would take bath before coming to the supper table. But before they reach the table they have to walk with their sandals and full of mud and once they reach the table their feet is dirty but not the whole body, just the feet due to their displacement from bathroom to the supper table. Please imagine with me, they don’t have a fancy bathroom like us, like it is integrated with our house bathroom, it is far from the house some may have to walk a distance to get shower. So by the time the reach the supper table, their feet is really dirty. Some may smell, due to the wet feet walk on soils carries together with them is the earth-smell.

Ok, so once reaching the supper table, it is a custom the house host to take the HONOR of washing the feet of the ‘guest’. But in this scenario, Jesus and the disciple are at a place neither Jesus nor the disciple are the host. So Jesus initiates the washing of the feet. That is why the rest of the disciple keep quiet and only Peter makes noise. Peter understanding the status of Jesus, after seeing the transfiguration knowing how holy he is that he don’t deserve Jesus touching his dirty feet. And in response Jesus said, if you don’t let me wash your feet, you are not part of me, then Peter say, if that is so, was my hands (action) and head (mind) too, Jesus replied, those who have taken a bath already clean but the feet need to be washed again.

Remarkable statement by Jesus, Jesus’ blood has washed our action and mind cleansed. Clearing our guilt of our action and mind, leaving us guilt-free status washed once and for all by His blood, (Hebrews 10: 14because by one sacrifice he has made perfect forever those who are being made holy.).

Then why do we need Jesus to wash our feet? The verse above already clearly initiates the word “BEING” made holy. You ought to realize the grammar don’t make sense. Made is a past tense, Being is continuous tense, holy is a noun.
Feet represent our walk, every day we need to walk with Jesus, if we are not letting Jesus was our feet daily, there is no way we are going to belong to him. But our action are mind are impure, remember when Peter say wash my hands and head too, Jesus say there is no need for that, the blood is alone enough. But the feet need washing.

Feet are the only portion where we can wash ourselves honestly but won’t be so perfect. Only the PERFECT man Christ Jesus would be able to do a Perfect cleanse on our feet each day. We need the dirty little portion to be cleansed by Jesus every day. And that may be the portion we ought to feel unworthy of surrendering to Jesus, well, it is fair enough, if you love him, it is easy to give him your hand and your head, but he is concern on the place you may have difficulty to clean you leg, if no one else is going to do it, He will do it.

I need you Lord to cleanse my feet.

Help me I Pray,

In Jesus Name.

Amen.

Proven His Faithulness

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,[a] who[b] have been called according to his purpose. ( Romans 8 : 28)

I really need to type out this testimony from my friend. I already ask his permission to type this testimony and he agreed. I had a friend in Singapore more like just an acquaintance who I just met online and msn very often. Nothing else but just chatting, we share our faith and theology views and we were just a close buddy.
When I was really down and was jobless, he lay some comfort to me through scriptures and prayers. Then his tough day started when he wanted so much to study in Australia for his degree pursue, but things change for worse. He is from a broken family where his mom is a single divorce lady and the bread winner. As a successful bread winner they were really doing good at their comfort HDB flat in admiralty ( I am not really sure what his mom was working as ). But thunder breaks in when His mom got retrenchment. Not only that his dream was shattered even before the retrenchment, but now his comfort zone has been challenged.

He had to make extra living to support his family right now, due to his mom’s retrenchment and heavy debts and pursuing part time studies. All Rain down on him with tears. He shared with me, I shared radically and challenged him with Romans 8:28. That is really radical challenge. He sometime was really turn off with me when I keep saying it’s for Good, God intended for Good. Really those are thing that is hardest to believe at such time like that. As single lady, trying to become the bread winner again, wasn’t that easy.

Things turn around, God made everything a round change right now. By God providence, His mom was able to retire. Someone they know propose to remarry his mom. And this person is living in Australia. It happen to be, now he can go to the university he desired. That man who proposed to marry his mom, promised to bear ALL the cost for his education, on top of that He bought her a house in Sydney just for her mom. Drowned in debts in Singapore, when God want to do great thing, WOW, I really moved to tears to hear what GOD had done in HIS LIFE. I couldn’t help but to rejoice with him, For God’s faithfulness.

IS THERE ANYTHING IMPOSSIBLE TO GOD ? PLEASE CAN SOMEONE TELL ME ?
These are the pictures of the house in Australia they are moving in soon. This is the proven track record of God’s abundance providence. Just like God bring Abundance to Ruth Through remarriage of Boaz; comes the Descendant of David.

Officially Smoker

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i don't know what actually happen to me, but i really don't like the man i see in the mirror rite now. I know i have walked to far away, and i build my own fortress and hide myself there, but not long enough i actually now realise instead of building a fortress i build my grave.

i am now hooked into new habits, i am now officially a smoker, i just bought my first pack of cigarette, i am not hiding myself anymore, i agree this is a wrong thing. i don't want to justify them. It's rather a foolish thing to smoke.

But i rather want to know how i end up here ? really, i dun want to blame anyone, I thought if i leave my friends behind they will be there for me when i find them, but i am wrong. I am left empty when i return. I shouldn't have left. but again, i dun blame them, they are just as busy as i am, they got the own life to attend to, they can't live in for me. But i really wish i could go back the time.

last saturday, i recieved a call from a church member, I rather leave it un-name, this is the first time someone call me and check out, not calling me to ask a favour. i was touched, although the person lie to me about the Holy Spirit inspire him to call me and so on but actually he saw me in Jusco. anyway, i was really moved. I really do know that people still recognise me in my own church. Seriously, i am not blaming them to see me as alien, i walked away. I build a fortress so big now they dun see me already.

but just wish, someone would be there when i need a place to talk. someone just standby and listen to me. every word i could actually lift out. basically, i am at fault too, i am just seeking friends to lift my story only. really living in an island of my own ( i am not referring to Singapore).

This is so wrong, I don't recognise myself anymore. i dunno what happen to the Naresh i use to know. Died or vanished, i really dun like the man i see in the mirror. I smoke, but this isn't the big deal, the bigger deal is, when i look "ok" nobody want to stand by me, now that i am even more uglier, who would acknowledge me as friend ? i really want to know. I really seek to know.

Dear friends, if you are reading this, i am sincerely want to apologise my absence in our friendship. I know i walked away. I was down. But now, i can't walk in and can't be friends again. I am living in an island that you can't reach me. we are living in different world. wish only i can swim to your world. but a wish is a wish. I definitely know there is no way i can go there. So sorry; guess it ends here. My fortress Grave.

Now there is nothing u can do, there is nothing i can do also. too far away, two world apart. I am not ashamed to agree that i am in unrighteous world. but I deserve to be isloated and islanded cause i make up an bad image in you. I am sad to be like this but there is nothing that i can do rite now. This blog have no objective, it's just shout out of my grave mistake.

PLEASE my fellow Christian FRIENDS ... I AM BAD IMAGE, don't be stumble...

Thanks for reading,

LONG LOST AND GONE,
NARESH

FAITH= Friendship And Intimacy That Happens

Today I had a great time in church. When I step into church, I was like want to fist with God, I am depressed and wasn’t really myself. I walk in rather little late, trying to skip the worship session today. Then once I walk in Ben was singing my favorite song couldn’t help but burst into worship from deep my heart(You are Everything I need).

Then goes the sermon, really touched deep bottom of my heart, really moved me to the core. When they open for altar call, I just so couldn’t help myself, cause of the song Ben choose, (Still), this time round I burst into tears. REALLY couldn’t help myself.

Then I was at the front, doing all the grumbling with God, asking him where do my faith really lack ? when was the time I stop trusting you ?

Then in a still small voice I hear him post a question, before that let me also tell the thing that happen when I was 14 years old. I was in a UTM camp. I was the youngest of them all, depress just like now. I was crying to God, please make me Holy, then God post me a question, what do you think is Holy? Back then 14 years old, I could barely answer to God what is Holy, since I am crying so much to become Holy, but couldn’t actually tell him what is Holy. Then I post him the question what is holy ? He replied, “HOLY=He Only Loves You”, Then He explained why only God alone is Holy and no one else can be. IT really radically change my life. Not just mine, I walk in to the pulpit to share my encounter with God, it really touch a lot people’s life. That was 11 years ago, I was instrument for God to minister to many young adult in the camp. I was really touched on that camp.

Then, here I stand again, with the flashback, I ask God what have actually happen to me. How did I lose the fire? Then God actually stood back to the Question, what do you think is Faith? I reply so much for trusting you. He asked again, what do you think is Faith? I replied again, to be certain of the things that are uncertain, and many more definition that my theology brain could think of even quoting scripture (imagine me quoting scriptures to God). Then He asked me for the third time, What do YOU think is faith? I replied, I don’t know.

He Replied :

F … Friendship
A… And
I … Intimacy
T …That
H… Happens

Then, my brain goes all around the bible, doing a search what Inspiration I receive was actually supported biblically, and I torn into my knowledge that this is true. When Abraham have faith, there is Friendship and Intimacy, When Moses have Faith, again evidence of Friendship and Intimacy. So is the heroes of faith mention in Hebrews 11. IT really break me into pieces to know I been trusting God like I trust an ATM machine. When I insert the card and key in the number, the money will definitely come out. That’s a trust, but I don’t build a friendship or have intimacy with an ATM machine. When I have no money I turn to ATM machine to give me money. But I don’t love ATM machine, worst of all, I don’t care about the ATM machine, I just find whichever ATM machine available to give me money. Same thing, I was treating God, just like I treat an ATM machine.

God can make it all easy for me, that I actually losing sight of what initially he intend my existence for. It’s all for Him. Building friendship and relationship and Intimacy, this is what he wants, it will give birth to trust and faith.

I hope this is really not long winded. But this really bless my day. I hope to bless others with this writing.

God Bless.

Naresh

Michael Jackson – an evidence of vanity

Michael Joseph Jackson, been around as king of pop, a house everyone could never imagine, Jehovah Witness, a black man who becomes white. I know it’s common for man who thinks he is women to get change but in the course of history this is long lasting story about a famous guy who dislike his colour and change it.

Many don’t agree, or denying, people with fair skin claim to be more superior than people with tanned skin. In search of true identity, many trap in the problem of their colour. Who can they blame ? parents ? God ? people around them ? some black communities, tries to change the stereotypical thinking, strive real hard, like hip hop and tupac.

But the root of the problem is not colour, if analyse carefully, everyone black or white, strife real hard to superior than everyone else. Even white people against white people. Everyone is self-seeking and self centred. They just want to be known and accepted by everyone. I am sure, MJ was accepted all across the world.

YET, tragically, he is really empty. If you would follow the course of his life, the things that he attempts definitely would spell him of seeking meaning to his life. The colour change, the molestation, divorce and marriage, the neverland, the orphanange. He was desperately seeking meaning in his life.

Tragically, another death related with drugs, just like elvis, meaningless arrest his life. No one has meaning to this life, unless he find Christ.

Another Famous man died, try everything under the Sun, except accepting the SON. Vanity .. chasing after the wind.

It's a Power struggle

from Obama to Hilary Clinton, Najib to Anwar, Mohd Nizar and Zambry it's a power struggle.

but little that i know everyone around me, I mean everyone around me knowingly or unknowingly, intentionally and unintentionally trying to empower something or someone or some decision. It's a constant power struggle over everything around us. sometime i myself of speaking so much about it .. may be one of them who perhaps one point of time in my life would struggle or won or empower some decision or perhaps more. But how no matter how i see it, it looks dirty to me.

Parents claiming lordship over children, husband over wife and vice versa and adults seeking independant to be lord over themselves it look so wrong to me. some can just go so extreme, the winner on this struggle always boast about his victory and the loser are the one crying. The whole is just place for constant power struggle.

Christ is the REAL LORD over everything. if anyone try to achieve or empower over anything, anybody is sucessful. But winning the power is not the thing, is maintaining the real lordship is difficult. i may also be a lord over something, but i cannot be Lord of the something i am lord of. I need to surendder to real LORD. everything else i own over, rule over, need to throw down. i throw down not because i am irresponsible, i thrown down so the Lord can remain LORD. but if throw down, the danger is that other people is trying to pick up my life. everyone knowingly or unknowingly is struggling to grip on something. AS much they can, they want to control .

take the thought for a moment, even in circle of firendship someone in the circle would want to take the leadership. Some want to take lordship. Some people just need a room or space to make decision for themselve. I just pray, people around me realise that, i am struggling to let God be my LORD. and i don't serve any other God in my life. Please if i rejecting your authority over my life, i really meant it. I think you are dirty and your leadership is dirty. I just want to be humble before God. I want his Lordship oer life. May be i am hardheaded person that find it difficult to submit to authority.

I just pray the Lord help me find a pure Lordship in me. I pray the Lord teach me to submit to authority that HE establish over me.

I just hope people who read this are not confuse.

LOL

I learn a lesson about Life

Actually i am reading few book, Miracle is in your mouth, A life worth living ( by Joseph Prince) and Finding Friendship With God ( by Floyd Mc Clung).

there were so many incident that happen in my life for the past week. especially this weekend. That really i guess i learn a lesson. Much to my tears, i faced with my own greatest fear. I was like sheep laid astray all alone in a jungle. I met all kind of people wild animal and also fellow sheepmates. but at the end of the day I was so alone so alone to the core.

Guess, the greatest lesson in life is that, no matter how people say it, or preach, or fake it, no one actually care about me. actually no one care for another. the whole world is a self centred world. there are just some .. just handful of people who actually care about others, guess that what makes the world still a place for living.

Much to my tears, i realise the only place i can find shelter. Only on the shelter of 'El-Shaddai' is the permanent shelter and refuge. Only Him stays eternal unchange. And His care are constant. to me now nothing else matter, i only know that i should continue to care, because Jesus cares for me.

I know now, i find relieve in Him, who is constant, and unchanged, In him alone will trust. I know my very emotional need, spiritual need, physical need, he is all that satisfy. He is the Jehovah Jireh the Provider. He is the Provision because he is my need, i can only be filled by him.

I know, i worth more than wild flowers and birds in the air, and my hair he have accounted for. So i worry not, he is my Shepherd that leads me, he is my care my refuge, my hiding place, my unfailing relationship and He is faithful. I know, untill i am touching the grave, i know his Grace is no departing for me. I know now, the day my breathe the last, even after that, i am going have a last FATHER-son relationship and nothing going to change that. Not in all my effort put together, or the world in its deadliest evilest scheme or effort put together, could break that relationship of my SHEPHERD-sheep.

I am REALLY GLAD that You are in my life LORD. I can't be without You. My very help in the times of trouble.

When i don't know what to do,
I know exactly You know what to do,
When i don't know what to do,
I know You will come true,
When i don't know what to do,
I know You will bring breakthrough.
When i don't know what to do,
It's an Oppurtunity to know You,
When i don't know what to do,
In You there is Refuge,
When i don't know what to do,
Your Rod and Your word will guide me through,
When i don't know what to do,
I can step back and let You Lead,
Just When i don't know what to do,
It's the time to come to You.

Thank You LORD.