FAITH= Friendship And Intimacy That Happens

Today I had a great time in church. When I step into church, I was like want to fist with God, I am depressed and wasn’t really myself. I walk in rather little late, trying to skip the worship session today. Then once I walk in Ben was singing my favorite song couldn’t help but burst into worship from deep my heart(You are Everything I need).

Then goes the sermon, really touched deep bottom of my heart, really moved me to the core. When they open for altar call, I just so couldn’t help myself, cause of the song Ben choose, (Still), this time round I burst into tears. REALLY couldn’t help myself.

Then I was at the front, doing all the grumbling with God, asking him where do my faith really lack ? when was the time I stop trusting you ?

Then in a still small voice I hear him post a question, before that let me also tell the thing that happen when I was 14 years old. I was in a UTM camp. I was the youngest of them all, depress just like now. I was crying to God, please make me Holy, then God post me a question, what do you think is Holy? Back then 14 years old, I could barely answer to God what is Holy, since I am crying so much to become Holy, but couldn’t actually tell him what is Holy. Then I post him the question what is holy ? He replied, “HOLY=He Only Loves You”, Then He explained why only God alone is Holy and no one else can be. IT really radically change my life. Not just mine, I walk in to the pulpit to share my encounter with God, it really touch a lot people’s life. That was 11 years ago, I was instrument for God to minister to many young adult in the camp. I was really touched on that camp.

Then, here I stand again, with the flashback, I ask God what have actually happen to me. How did I lose the fire? Then God actually stood back to the Question, what do you think is Faith? I reply so much for trusting you. He asked again, what do you think is Faith? I replied again, to be certain of the things that are uncertain, and many more definition that my theology brain could think of even quoting scripture (imagine me quoting scriptures to God). Then He asked me for the third time, What do YOU think is faith? I replied, I don’t know.

He Replied :

F … Friendship
A… And
I … Intimacy
T …That
H… Happens

Then, my brain goes all around the bible, doing a search what Inspiration I receive was actually supported biblically, and I torn into my knowledge that this is true. When Abraham have faith, there is Friendship and Intimacy, When Moses have Faith, again evidence of Friendship and Intimacy. So is the heroes of faith mention in Hebrews 11. IT really break me into pieces to know I been trusting God like I trust an ATM machine. When I insert the card and key in the number, the money will definitely come out. That’s a trust, but I don’t build a friendship or have intimacy with an ATM machine. When I have no money I turn to ATM machine to give me money. But I don’t love ATM machine, worst of all, I don’t care about the ATM machine, I just find whichever ATM machine available to give me money. Same thing, I was treating God, just like I treat an ATM machine.

God can make it all easy for me, that I actually losing sight of what initially he intend my existence for. It’s all for Him. Building friendship and relationship and Intimacy, this is what he wants, it will give birth to trust and faith.

I hope this is really not long winded. But this really bless my day. I hope to bless others with this writing.

God Bless.

Naresh