It's a Power struggle

from Obama to Hilary Clinton, Najib to Anwar, Mohd Nizar and Zambry it's a power struggle.

but little that i know everyone around me, I mean everyone around me knowingly or unknowingly, intentionally and unintentionally trying to empower something or someone or some decision. It's a constant power struggle over everything around us. sometime i myself of speaking so much about it .. may be one of them who perhaps one point of time in my life would struggle or won or empower some decision or perhaps more. But how no matter how i see it, it looks dirty to me.

Parents claiming lordship over children, husband over wife and vice versa and adults seeking independant to be lord over themselves it look so wrong to me. some can just go so extreme, the winner on this struggle always boast about his victory and the loser are the one crying. The whole is just place for constant power struggle.

Christ is the REAL LORD over everything. if anyone try to achieve or empower over anything, anybody is sucessful. But winning the power is not the thing, is maintaining the real lordship is difficult. i may also be a lord over something, but i cannot be Lord of the something i am lord of. I need to surendder to real LORD. everything else i own over, rule over, need to throw down. i throw down not because i am irresponsible, i thrown down so the Lord can remain LORD. but if throw down, the danger is that other people is trying to pick up my life. everyone knowingly or unknowingly is struggling to grip on something. AS much they can, they want to control .

take the thought for a moment, even in circle of firendship someone in the circle would want to take the leadership. Some want to take lordship. Some people just need a room or space to make decision for themselve. I just pray, people around me realise that, i am struggling to let God be my LORD. and i don't serve any other God in my life. Please if i rejecting your authority over my life, i really meant it. I think you are dirty and your leadership is dirty. I just want to be humble before God. I want his Lordship oer life. May be i am hardheaded person that find it difficult to submit to authority.

I just pray the Lord help me find a pure Lordship in me. I pray the Lord teach me to submit to authority that HE establish over me.

I just hope people who read this are not confuse.

LOL

I learn a lesson about Life

Actually i am reading few book, Miracle is in your mouth, A life worth living ( by Joseph Prince) and Finding Friendship With God ( by Floyd Mc Clung).

there were so many incident that happen in my life for the past week. especially this weekend. That really i guess i learn a lesson. Much to my tears, i faced with my own greatest fear. I was like sheep laid astray all alone in a jungle. I met all kind of people wild animal and also fellow sheepmates. but at the end of the day I was so alone so alone to the core.

Guess, the greatest lesson in life is that, no matter how people say it, or preach, or fake it, no one actually care about me. actually no one care for another. the whole world is a self centred world. there are just some .. just handful of people who actually care about others, guess that what makes the world still a place for living.

Much to my tears, i realise the only place i can find shelter. Only on the shelter of 'El-Shaddai' is the permanent shelter and refuge. Only Him stays eternal unchange. And His care are constant. to me now nothing else matter, i only know that i should continue to care, because Jesus cares for me.

I know now, i find relieve in Him, who is constant, and unchanged, In him alone will trust. I know my very emotional need, spiritual need, physical need, he is all that satisfy. He is the Jehovah Jireh the Provider. He is the Provision because he is my need, i can only be filled by him.

I know, i worth more than wild flowers and birds in the air, and my hair he have accounted for. So i worry not, he is my Shepherd that leads me, he is my care my refuge, my hiding place, my unfailing relationship and He is faithful. I know, untill i am touching the grave, i know his Grace is no departing for me. I know now, the day my breathe the last, even after that, i am going have a last FATHER-son relationship and nothing going to change that. Not in all my effort put together, or the world in its deadliest evilest scheme or effort put together, could break that relationship of my SHEPHERD-sheep.

I am REALLY GLAD that You are in my life LORD. I can't be without You. My very help in the times of trouble.

When i don't know what to do,
I know exactly You know what to do,
When i don't know what to do,
I know You will come true,
When i don't know what to do,
I know You will bring breakthrough.
When i don't know what to do,
It's an Oppurtunity to know You,
When i don't know what to do,
In You there is Refuge,
When i don't know what to do,
Your Rod and Your word will guide me through,
When i don't know what to do,
I can step back and let You Lead,
Just When i don't know what to do,
It's the time to come to You.

Thank You LORD.